Do Not Plan

  I don’t plan things. Okay I do, but I try to avoid doing so. Things I plan, that I spend money on, go sour. Like swat team ruining your party sour, major medical bill sour or even freak snow storm sour.  So I put things off. I have to get Aia’s passport renewed but haven’t […]

Most Days I am Alone With My Thoughts

I was watching mustard seeds skip across the hot oil and thinking. I spend so much time on thinking. Creating worlds, dreaming up escape scenarios to impossible situations, planning recipes and thinking up responses to questions I’ll never be asked.  But as each seed hopped briefly into the air I began to catalog the time […]

Attack Attack

I’ve had three attacks since the the Sunday before last, including today. It starts with back pain. Weird upper back pain. Then it gets harder to breath. Eventually my chest and stomach hurt. It only takes one OxyCotin to make the pain go away. So that gives me roughly 36 more times, assuming things don’t […]