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I Have a Hole in My Head: Three Days of Hell

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If you’re male and don’t like squicky girl problems then look away. If you’re anyone who doesn’t want to hear me vent and be graphic about squicky girl problems, look the fuck away. You’ve been warned. Also this might not make any sense.

I woke up Monday morning with my left eye swollen shut. I had pretty much expected it because of the hive growing on my nose bridge. Either way I hiked up to the nearest urgent care just in case. And yes, it was part of the allergic reaction I was having to Proactive. (Oh yeah, insult to injury)
That’s right after all that crap and having every single rep lie to me in one way or another I’m also allergic to this crap.

So, they gave me Benadryl and sent me home. I cleaned the house until the swelling went down enough so I could see. That was half a day and most of the money I’d made last week down the drain. Enter pissy mood here. UC also gave me another instruction, stay off all medication until the reaction stops, just in case. That was easy; my script ran out that day so I didn’t take anything and waited.

Put this inside the frame of the fact that this is my week for bleeding all over the floor.

The swelling went down and the hives turned into a large hole off the side of the bridge of my nose. One person told me (on the bus, this was not J.) that it looked like a nice .22 hole and I should get that checked out. Gee thanks.

Then it gets worse.

I take three medications. Metformin for the PCOS. It forces my body to use the insulin in produces rather than store it, according to my doctor, and helps keep the cysts from forming on my ovaries and staying there. Synthroid for hypothyroidism. My thyroid doesn’t function correctly, bad things include crazy weight gain, feelings of being insane, unable to control my emotions, and being cold, very very cold. I also take cyclobenzaprine, a muscle relaxant. It lets me sleep and makes the jarring pain not so bad.

I did okay on Monday felt bad but dealt with it. By Tuesday morning I was in pain, couldn’t remember how to make cream of wheat, and hurt so bad I decided going downstairs to work might be bad idea. I can’t remember how to log into work so I burst into tears. I forgot where the dogs were. I took two sleeping pills to make it through the night since it hurt so much I couldn’t stop crying much less sleep.

It got worse today. I needed to go to the store for tampons. I stood in isle for fifteen minutes trying to remember what I needed. I drove home twice, remembering to get the Christmas tree out of storage turning around and then thinking I was done had to go home. This is fibro-fog and my thyroid acting together to break my brain. Each day has been late to start, hard to finish and all I can do try not to think of the pain. When I can think it’s not rational or in a straight line.

Tomorrow I go back on my meds. I can’t fucking wait. I don’t want to deal with anyone. Everything is irritating tenfold and the people. Well if I had to deal with people today, I’d probably be in jail right now. So no DnD for me tonight. I am not a team player right now.

My problems are transitory. They aren’t that bad. Things will be better tomorrow and it will work itself out. But right now? Right my right shoulder blade hurts and my head hurts and so does my head. I feel like I’m work through cotton and I’m damn fucking cold.

There is TMI in this Post Amoung the Weekend Updates

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So no, the weekend did not start out well with my computer dying, again. I’m actually extremely upset now as I know it’s a hardware issue. At the end of the week I should have an update on that. Any bets on what I’ll get from Dell this time?

Writing went well this weekend. Not only did I finish a chapter, but I’ve joined a new critique group. This is looks much more committed than my last group and we have a good range of folks both in ability and background. After they left I managed to pound out another 1000 words. Creativity abounds.

We did Aia’s b-day party this weekend. McDonald’s totally dropped the ball. Nothing was ready, no one seemed to know what to do. They managed to get their act together in the end but dang. We’re not going back there next year. So I need to scout out a new place.

Heroes sucks now…have I told you that? The suckage is so bad that they are now sticking random sex in for the hell of it. Noah actually waited to start shooting until after teh sexes. Stupid. Hiro is still my fav as he’s the ONLY character to learn from his mistakes. And the only guy who deals with the bad guys first. Chances of continuing to watch this show though are near nil.

Our movie night is now on LOST. Day late and a dollar short I know. We’re finding the show fairly predictable, but good anyway. We can deal with that. People say it’s gets weirder. We’ll see.

Now for the TMI. My period started this weekend. The bad thing about that? It’s only been two and a half weeks since my last period. Not good. In fact very bad. The last time this happened, I was in the middle of massive cancer screenings which boiled down to the hypothyroidism. Has it gone further in the wonky? Or is this the PCOS? With the hair loss, the bloating, the mood thing I’m worried. Doc on Friday. Hoping we can deal with this with a medication adjustment. Hoping.

Things I forgot to say….

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Cat has be reincarnated….and I finally got to the latest photos. That includes DR…look for those soonish.

I’m back on Flex…I couldn’t handle core. It was like I wasn’t on a diet at all. And that’s not good. Mean while WW has changed my points again…I only get 22 a day now. Ouch. Since my goal each day is to stay below points…that makes it a bit rougher. Don’t shake your head…the HT and PCOS requires I keep my points lower.

Worse things…for a long time I’ve gotten a pressure in my throat that makes me breath in burps. Coughing usually clears it…and until this month it usually only happened in a stuffy car…now it’s constant. Breathing is work.

My hair is falling out in large clumps now. How would I look bald? I don’t know…but I’m not going to be one of those comb-over woman. No way in hell.

I’m still a month and a half away from my next doctor’s appointment. I’m on track to be 160lbs by then…my current goal. That would be a total 30lbs lost and a miracle.

I’m a miracle maker.

Getting Notes Together

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I’ve made the second WW goal. Which means I’m at a total of 10lbs loss. I’ve been her before….hopefully I’ll get past that.

For some reason Hypothyroidism and PCOS have a lot of hypochondriac glommers on. I hate going to PCOS and thyroid boards and lists. There is some crap being slug around by idiots it’s unfathomable. Let me give you some straight dope.

You can’t diagnose yourself. If you have the symptoms of either disease…talk to your doctor.

Take your pills. If it does not seem to be working…don’t stop…talk to your doctor. You may need different pills, a higher dose or something else maybe wrong. Asking to see your tests is just fine…but posting them on the internet so that some random nurse can tell you they are not right is stupid. If doctor is telling you something you don’t want to hear like you may have depression…you should talk to your doctor about it. There is no one fix for these problems…and you may have others. I can’t stress this enough…TALK to your doctor. If they said it must be depression…did you ask what can be done about it?

Do you live in the US? Do you eat green leafy vegetables or fruit? Do you drink tap water (filtered or not)? Do you eat meat? If you answered yes to any of these questions then you DON’T need iodine supplements. The same goes for iron. In a multivitamin…fine…but unless you have a disorder that requires the supplements (ie talk to your doctor).

Going from doctor to doctor to get them to prescribe you pills you only think you need makes you look like an idiot. If you are thinking of looking for a new doctor ask yourself the following: Why? Did I talk to him/her about the problem I’m having with them? What did they say? Do they talk to me at each visit? Why am I angry? Have I explored all possibilities with this doctor? Have I tried what they suggested? If answered no to any of these perhaps you should try them.

Don’t dose yourself. Follow the doctor’s dosage. If have concerns about the dosage talk to your doctor. Take more or less because you feel like it can kill you.

Exercise…you have to exercise. Live with it.

Balance your diet. Give up most if not all sugar…live with it.

Finally if your doctor tells you your thyroid is fine or that you don’t have PCOS…ask why, discuss your tests with him or her. If you really have something wrong then talk to them about it.

Doing research is fine…but unless you are a real doctor you really can’t just dose this away yourself. It does not go away. Deal. It takes up to 8 weeks for thyroid and PCOS medications to start to take affect. Trying to change things in less then a week is stupid. This takes time. There is no wonder drug.

If you can’t handle any of what you just read…you might need therapy. Seriously…did you find yourself rejecting everything or anything I just said? Talk it out with a professional.

I thought I was going mad before getting on Sythroid. I still felt tired, lost hair and though I could keep my weight steady…it took way too much work to get it off. Turns out I have PCOS. So now I’m on metformin and the synthroid (same dosage since first prescribed) I can say I feel great now…and that I’m loosing weight just with dieting. I know that once I get into a good exercise routine I will feel even better and loose more weight. Had I listened to the half the crazies on the web I’d still be in trouble. This isn’t that hard folks…talk to your doctor.

Sigh.

I’ve managed to start the outlines for both the modules. I’ve got some good ideas…. These games should be lots of fun.

I bought a copy of Supernotecard. It seems to be working great for keeping my notes. I’m almost done with gathering them all up then back to writing the novel. I should have the registration code soon…just waiting for paypal to clear.