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Mourning Routine
Everything, everything I have counted on for all my years ended this year. It wasn’t a surprise. My grandmother had tired of life. So she ended it. For the past year after her last hospitalization, the bad one; the one my sister, and mother and I dropped everything for, was preparation for this. The last…
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How do I find words?
Grief is just what it is. Life narrowed down in a funnel to one moment. A moment you have to crawl out of… but. it. is. so. easy. to slip back in.
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My Life and How to Find Me
As I’ve dedicated more and more free time to art the universe appears to want to knock me down. I started this post in … April? I had a hard winter, for lots of reasons, mostly health but I started to get back into the swing of things, posting videos, painting, writing. I thought after…
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Routines Escape Me
Routines are hard. I’m not entirely sure why but unless I have people who can’t or won’t get along without me, I can’t seem to keep to a schedule. I have a neat calendar. I set timers, alarms, etc but just getting out a video every week is so hard. I want to do it…
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A Year of Silence (and broken websites)
I didn’t think I would be spending a year trying to fix a website, and yet, here we are. Settle in; this is a long one. At the beginning of 2023, I was still hip-deep in unpacking from my move. Honestly, I was overwhelmed, and while I tried to enter the Portland/Vancouver scene, I found…
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Happiness, Loneliness, Sharing
I am mostly alone. That’s not fully true. My dogs are here. I talk with and visit friends all the time. Life is just a quiet stillness for me. And realizations. Realizations that I am happy. I don’t need anyone to make me happy. Dating has not gone well. At this age who is left…