• Things I’d Tell A Younger Me

    Things I’d Tell A Younger Me

    A List. When the teach told you could only read the books in your bin for your reading group of one, which had already read. And if you fussed she would take away all the books, steal the books in the other bins when she wasn’t looking. When they lock you in a room to…

  • 2022: New Year, Same Me Just More Broken Now

    2022: New Year, Same Me Just More Broken Now

    Yesterday I forgot to put coffee in my coffee. I put in the brown sugar, some hot water to water it down, vanilla, cloves, cinnamon, nutmeg and some cocoa powder, then walked back to my desk and took a drink of tepid mud water. Yuk. This is a larger issue though, something that has been…

  • I’m Tired

    I’m Tired

    Two more surgeries this year and I’m finally feeling better as far as the ongoing abdominal pain I’ve had for years. Endometriosis isn’t a surprise but, well, it wasn’t unexpected in the context what they thought they would be going into do. So I’m officially in menopause. As far as that goes, so far so…

  • Reflection on Good Things in a Year of Pain

    Reflection on Good Things in a Year of Pain

    It’s funny how this works. This time last year, I was suffering immense physical pain. I was isolated from everyone I knew both in quarantine and distance. Oh yeah, and Winnie died. Surgery was imminent. I had to go to physical therapy for my face. People all around the world seemed to be embroiled in…

  • Diagnosis: Validation in Time

    Diagnosis: Validation in Time

    After years of tests and admonitions that I am fine, I have a diagnosis. NASH, non-alcoholic steatohepatitis. A form of hepatitis that forms because of fat infiltrating the liver, common with conditions where fat is stored abnormally (PCOS and Hypothyroidism). I’m in the beginning stages of cirrhosis so very little damage. But damage nonetheless. In…

  • Removing My Hysteria

    Removing My Hysteria

    New Latin, from English hysteric, adjective, from Latin hystericus, from Greek hysterikos, from hystera womb; from the Greek notion that hysteria was peculiar to women and caused by disturbances of the uterus. History and Etymology for hysteria Four weeks ago I had a hysterectomy. Besides the pain, everything seemed to well. I don’t miss my…

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