The strong-willed teacher…strict…Academic Love.
Clash! Learn on one’s own vs. obedience to a teacher.
Pagan books on the subject seem to want to ignore the harsher aspects of this Sepherot. The pervading sense of wrongness continues.
From what I am learning…the Witch’s Qabala by Ellen Cannon Reed is does cover the basics and more of the in depth stuff. The girl doesn’t take any crap…but she can dish it. The idea that you ignore parts of a system that don’t fit with paganism doesn’t jive with me.