Sometimes you cannot escape.

I grew up with Fuzzy Vision. My eyesight grew progressively worse throughout my life. In high school, my nearsightedness was so bad I had to be led around if my glasses broke. By twenty, I began to go farsighted as well. By 23, I could no longer wear glasses, but rather expensive special bi-focal contacts. I refused to take them out, I could not bear the thought of not being able to see. I was legally blind. My life revolved around memorizing each object in a room; especially color, because without significant aid all I could see was a blurry collage of color.

Past Tense:

My grandparents, realizing that their eyesight was better than mine, decided to pay for lazex for me. The most wonderful gift of my life, at age 24, was 20/20 vision. I admit I kept my glasses (now a ten year old prescription) to remind me. Now I could get up and see.

A year past, two years and my vision did not deteriorate. I was told as my eyes aged I would need reading glasses, but that was fifteen years off. Fifteen years of perfect sight and forty or so more of needing glasses only when I read, is heaven.

However, this year I went in for my yearly check up. My sight is still just about perfect, except that I have cataracts forming. At first the words just washed over me, I had to ask the doctor again. Do 27 year olds get cataracts? Apparently so…they are genetic (I have no diseases which cause cataracts), all I can do is wait and hope I can afford the surgery as they get worse and I go blind.

I never expected to be threatened with blindness again. The worse part is this time I have to wait to see if they get worse. Joy.

Happier News:

Daz3d just gave me a voucher for buying a product in the past…happy stuff!
I managed to get beeswax at a garage sale, made a whole bunch of candles!

Of course the website!

The main folder is all updated, so on to graphics, watch over the next week to see the new layout in Fuzzy Graphics, a new gallery, with new images, and some new links to sites I have created, plus my newest tarot card.

One last note, one I feel that has been bugging me for quite sometime: Is it just me or do the VH1 commentators just miss the point?

The CIA convened an open panel of scientists in January to discuss potential terrorist uses of life-science research, and the panel concluded that,despite the risks, openness in scientific study was absolutely crucial; in April, the CIA suppressed the panel’s conclusions on openness as classified.[Federation of American Scientists Secrecy News, 4-2-03]






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